SPEECH #1

SPEECH #1:Note to self 22’

I didn’t have no huge expectations for this year. I was going with the flow. January definitely hit me with a bang,so did the beginning of February, but at that point, it was my birthday month, so that’s where a lot of my focus went into. I was still a little anxious throughout March, but the highlights was turning up with my friends more than we ever did. I felt like I finally found a solid friend group. I ended the later half of the month having strep throat, though. I was really sick and in pain. It sucked. Going into April, everything was amazing. My happiness skyrocketed. Mom was as healthy as could be. My friend's birthday was right around the corner and my sister was pregnant more than ever. I started a podcast, and began to re-brand myself. I fulfilled all my school requirements for the year and summer looked promising…until the middle of May.

Around this time, friendships declined and so did my mom’s health, ultimately leading to her tragic passing in July. The summer left me feeling broken and I’m still learning how to put these pieces of myself back together. The remaining friends that stuck around helped me to make my summer as fun as possible, and they did just that. I appreciated them for it.

Continuing school after this summer was yet another tough experience I had to undergo this year. I’m fighting every day to repress the stress, laziness, and the want to not do anything. This is through the spirit of my mother.

This year was far from great, as I experienced the most horrible moment of my entire life amid some happy times. There was several moments of this year that sucked completely, that I don’t ever want to endure again.

I loved to plan things from a younger age, I had my entire summer 2022 planned out. Then with the snap of a finger, everything changed. So where does that leave me? I don’t know. I do know that I’m tired of living with a lot of expectations, I don’t plan things anymore. I just go with the flow now. I’m focused on living my life the best way I see fit, and doing what I love most of all, singing.